Help!!! I've fallen.... only a little....

Man oh man! Losing weight is hard to do! The second that life handed me a box of lemons I slipped off the wagon and looked for comfort in my old stand-by: food. I've decided to forgive myself for this past indiscretion-after all I had a really emotional/bad kind of weekend. This realization that I had while I watched myself slip back into this old pattern will help me in my journey. It reminded me that I have to find another way to cope with life and its ups and downs without using food.

Ironically enough that was kind of the topic in weight watchers this week. Everyone was listing ways that you can enjoy your friends/family without food (which is basically the same as getting through the "bads" in life without using food to cope). Some of the suggestions were absolutely absurd-go canoeing, go sailing, etc. but honestly it is so true! I was so bummed out on Saturday so I went and helped a dear friend of mine get her home ready to put on the market. It was a great distraction and I got to spend time with people that I love-all without food!

The good news is that today-when I got news that my Grandma was in the ICU, I didn't reach for food. I actually took a nap and did a work out. This was a great reaction to dealing with the stress and fear and sadness of my Grandma being in the hospital. It also hit me in another way... it got me thinking about my Grandma's health and about my own.

I want to be healthy. I want to be able to run and jump and fly with my children. I want to laugh and shop and play games with my grand kids. I want to be around. I want to have a good life, I want an active life. The best news is that I have the power to give this gift to myself.


So today I was upward and onward- I jumped back on the health wagon. I'm going to start running. I keep saying this-and it is about time I make it happen. I really need to clear my head and I know that running will help me to do this in a very healthy way. I'm still working out with Bob and occasionally Jillian cause I need the weight training. I love the style of their workouts as I don't get as bored doing circuit training. I am really missing Bob's cross fit workouts from his website-but I just can't justify spending the $10/month on being in his club when I don't have a job and I have like 30 work out dvd's.

I have the tools to give myself a healthy life. I just need to remember to use them.

I've Lost Ten Dozen Large Eggs!

So my friends out there-(and my enemies too I suppose)... I've lost 15 pounds! According to a chart I found on Pinterest, that means I've lost Ten Dozen Large Eggs! Isn't that fun?! So how much weight have you lost? I can't wait until I lose a small pony. ha ha ha

This journey has not been easy, but every time I get on the scale and I see a lower number I am reminded that all of my hard work is worth it. I am also reminded that I have a longgg way to go!

I am so thankful for the support that I have from my wonderful husband and family and friends. I am also extremely grateful that I lost my job. I have been able to get my life back in order. I've been able to take control of my mental and physical health. I've been able to see that I matter. While on this journey of weight loss, I'm also hoping to find myself as a mother. I feel as if the body I am building and changing is preparing me to be a better mother, wife and friend. I haven't felt this strong in years. I feel like there is nothing that I can't do. I used to avoid taking stairs so that I wouldn't be out of breath and embarrassed-now I take them with no fear!

Part of me was hoping that I would be seeing more drastic weight losses on the scale each week, but honestly I think that the gradual way in which I'm losing the weight will just help me to keep it off. I keep dreaming of my 50 pounds of weight loss prize and I'm working so hard to get it!

Let me sing praises to MyFitnessPal!

Who ever created this ap deserves all of my love and adoration! If you are trying to lose weight this can be one of the best tools. I'd heard about this ap from many people before I finally jumped on the bandwagon. I thought I didn't need it-I thought... eh, I am on weight watchers and I have a hard enough time tracking my food there-so how could this ap be any different.

Well people somehow this ap is different. I think its partly because the food database is so large (which makes it easy to track my calories) and partly because my friends and family are using it so it motivates me to keep tracking because they are.

I really have to dedicate at least part of my weight loss to this little gem of an ap! So far I have lost 14 pounds! I am so thrilled about this. My clothing is fitting looser and looking better. I have more energy and I feel stronger. I still have a long ass way to go-but at least I am moving in the right direction. Did I tell you that I am getting my groove back? I'm a flirt and it feels great to be back in my groove.

I do have to add a small disclaimer.... MyFitnessPal alone will not solve your weight issues. You actually have to watch your calories, you actually have to work out-and not just park far away in the parking lot-you have to sweat, you have to move and you have to do it 4-6 times a week. I have worked hard for those 14 pounds. Not one of them just melted off of me-but, it is so worth it!

Happy Monday! Lets have a healthy week!