First things first... I love to dance. Absolutely love it. Dancing really could have quite easily become my life. Many years ago I was a dancer. My mom put me in ballet and tap and I even dabbled in baton twirling. I loved it! But I was a very perceptive child. As the oldest of four, I seemed to have a better sense of our family problems. I had heard my parents stressing about money and so I decided to take it upon myself to relieve them of the burden of paying for my dance classes by quitting dance when we moved to a new city. In speaking to my parents years later they were sad to find out that I'd given up dancing for the "family" and assured me that if I had wanted to continue in it then they would have made it happen. I'm sad that I gave it up then-but I am so happy that it is still giving me joy after all these years. Dancing makes me feel alive and light and beautiful. I've been playing Just Dance 2 and Zumba (wii) and I have never laughed so hard and enjoyed a work out so much before.
Second thing I've learned-I can go without caffeine! I have completely given it up! I noticed that it was really making me feel shaky in combination with the zoloft so I decided that I had to give up the caffeine cold turkey. I had some headaches but it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be. Now if I could only kick my daily Starbucks addiction, then I may actually lose some weight from changing this habit. Baby steps....
Third- I am getting married!!! It isn't far away either. We have chosen July 9, 2011 as our wedding day. This is really all the motivation a girl could need to lose weight. I certainly have all of the tools that I need. I got a BodyBugg for Christmas from my parents and if I could just get on track with tracking my food then it would really help me. I really have no choice but to man up to things. I don't want to be fat. I want to be thin. I want to feel sexy and healthy and GORGEOUS on my wedding day. To achieve this best I would like to lose weight. I'm not going to put a number out there. I've decided that when I don't reach my goal it is that much more depressing... so I'm deciding on a dress. I have this beautiful pink summer dress that I really want to wear to my rehearsal dinner. I feel so pretty in it but it is a size 14. So that is my target.
Fourth- Setting goals for this year is actually kind of fun. One of my other goals is that I am going to run the New Milford 5K again this year. By June I really hope to be in near wedding shape so it should be much easier to run the 5K this year than it was last year.
I promise to be better at this blogging... its just that the year had a rough start for me. I feel much more on track now and I am begging for your motivation, love and support. Thank you!
